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Post by Zaria Hawke on Jul 20, 2016 8:19:20 GMT -5
Waiting for Carver
Zaria looked at herself in the small mirror and smiled slightly. She had just cut her formerly long hair into a shorter cut that ended around her shoulders, which showed off her new face tattoo a lot better. She enjoyed the looks the tattoo earned her. She'd been running and hiding, trying to blend in, for so long that it was nice to stand out for something besides being a mage. She left the person who had just done her hair, after paying the woman of course, and went outside.
"The soldiers are back!" a voice called over the crowd. Everyone's heads turned as they watched, and Zaria was already scanning the returning people for her younger brother, Carver.
Maker, please let him be okay... she prayed. Word had reached them of the army's fate at Ostagar, about Loghain's betrayal, and how most of the soldiers had died. She kept scanning the soldiers, her heart sinking further every time she failed to see her brother. It doesn't mean he's dead, she told herself. It could just mean that he's with a different unit, or that he's... That he's... She sighed when she realized her brother wasn't there, and turned toward home.
"Mother! Bethany! I'm home!" she called as she closed the front door behind her.
"Welcome home sister," Bethany responded from the kitchen.
"I heard quite a commotion outside, what's going on?" their mother asked from where she sat by the fire.
"Some of the soldiers are back from Ostagar," she told them. "But Carver's not with them, I already checked." She hoped they couldn't hear the change in her voice when she talked about Bethany's twin. Sure, she and Carver hadn't always gotten along, but he was her brother.
"I'm sure he'll show up in time," their mother tried to assure the girls. "He was always good at that."
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Jul 20, 2016 19:28:41 GMT -5
Escape from Lothering
Zaria fell to her knees beside her sister's still form, fighting back the tears that wanted to fall. The ogre who killed Bethany was dead, by Zaria's hand, but that didn't undo what had already been done. She closed her eyes as the tears fell down her cheeks. Her baby sister... gone...
She felt a hand on her shoulder, and she turned to see her brother on his knees beside her. She let him pull her into his arms, crying into his chest while he ran a hand up and down her back. It reminded her oddly of what Father had done when she first discovered her magic. Her crying was echoed by their mother's mournful voice. She was reduced to sobbing gasps before she finally pushed away from her brother and stood, wiping her face with her hands. Her eyes blazed with anger and pain as she turned toward the darkspawn that were surrounding them again. She held out a hand, shooting a fireball at the darspawn but more took their place. The anger faded from her eyes and was replaced by a feeling of hopelessness. If they'd run sooner, this never would have happened.
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Jul 26, 2016 20:21:28 GMT -5
Kirkwall
"I don't see the point in digging up Bethany so you can hide behind her too!" Zaria told her brother harshly. Carver's expression softened, and he almost looked sorry. She shook her head. "Good talk," she muttered turning her back to him and starting to walk away.
"Sister," he called out. She stopped but didn't turn to face him just yet. "I feel... I dunno. It's like Mother, taking everything out on us. She was just scared. I don't have a place in the life she's trying to bring back." She still didn't face him, and she could feel the electricity jumping across her skin, under her armor. "I'm here if you need me, but I must find my own way." She heard his footsteps moving into the other room, and Zaria walked outside without looking back. The door slammed shut behind her.
Outside, her other companions were waiting. Aveline was leaning against the wall next to the doorframe. The dwarf, Varric, was sitting on one of the top steps cleaning his crossbow, while the Tevinter elf, Fenris, was standing at the base of the stairs with his back to the rest of them.
"Are you alright Hawke?" Aveline asked, an understanding look on her face. Zaria sighed and ran her hand through her hair. Of all Zaria's current companions, Aveline and Carver were the only ones that knew the whole truth of what happened in Lothering. She'd mentioned it to Varric, mostly in an attempt to keep him from bothering her. She'd had Fenris and her brother with her at the time, so Varric and Fenris were the only ones besides Aveline who knew much of anything about their experience with the Blight.
"Carver and I have always butted heads," she admitted after a moment. "He... he'll get over it eventually... I hope." She sighed again and squared her shoulders. "We need to find this Warden. Where did you say he was Varric?"
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Jul 26, 2016 23:12:46 GMT -5
The Deep Roads Aftermath
She sat on her bed in the estate she'd bought back with a portion of her share of what they found in the Deep Roads, looking aimlessly into the fireplace. She heard the door open, but didn't bother looking up. It could only be her mother.
"I'm sorry Mother," she said, not for the first time. "I shouldn't have brought Carver with us after all..." Leandra sat down next to Zaria and placed her hand over her daughter's.
"You don't need to torture yourself," Leandra said soothingly. "You did the best you could." Zaria sighed and leaned against her mother.
"First Bethany, now Carver..." She sighed again, and Leandra wrapped an arm around her. "It's been a disaster ever since we left Lothering. It's been months. If he hasn't said anything by now... Is it possible he's still alive?" Leandra didn't have an answer for that one. So they sat in silence for a while, taking comfort in each other's company. There were footsteps on the stairs, followed by a figure in the doorway.
"Mail's here messerre," Bodahn Feddick said, holding out a single letter. "You might want to see this one." He handed it to Leandra and went back downstairs. Leandra opened the letter, and her eyes widened.
"It's from Carver," she informed Zaria, who looked up quickly and read the letter over her mother's shoulder. "He survived the Joining... He's alive." Zaria smiled softly and relaxed.
"My baby brother... I didn't get him killed after all. Carver's alive." She laughed softly. "I should go tell Varric and Anders at least." Leandra laughed too, a sound very similar to her daughter's.
"Go tell your friends the good news," she agreed. "I'll be fine here." Zaria changed into her armor and slung her staff across her back before making her way out of the Hawke/Amell estate and down toward Lowtown, to the Hanged Man where Varric could always be found.
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Jul 27, 2016 19:22:33 GMT -5
Fenris
Ug! What was with that hard-headed elf?! Zaria collapsed on her bed, staring up at the canopy. She'd gotten into yet another argument with Fenris, and all it had done was piss them both off. Him and his hatred of magic, her and the fact that she simply WAS a mage. She held her hand out in front of her, fingers spread, watching the sparks dance between her fingers.
But why did fighting with Fenris make her so mad? She fought with Anders about his beliefs that mages should be completely free, but it didn't piss her off so much. She just thought Anders' beliefs were twisted because of the spirit inside him. Fighting with Fenris, though... It left her feeling... weird.
Her hand hit the bed again, and she realized what the feeling was. She felt bad about it. Not about her opinions, but about fighting with Fenris over it. Why did she feel bad about it? That didn't make sense. Her questions were overrun by the image of his smiling face, of the sound of his laugh, his voice... and her heart began to race.
Was she... falling for him? That anti-magic angsty former slave? ... Yes. She was falling for him. And that realization brought a smile to her face. She rolled over onto her side, gazing into the embers of a dying fire. Oh, Fenris... That laugh, those eyes... Even if she'd wanted to stop herself from falling for him, it was too late. She was already a goner.
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Jul 27, 2016 23:27:16 GMT -5
The Morning After
Zaria threw on her robe and rushed out the door after him, leaning over the rail just in time to see him walk into the entryway and out of sight. She reached the bottom of the steps right as the front door closed, and her protests died on her lips. She sighed and let her hand fall to her side.
"Are you alright Zaria?" her mother asked, coming over to her.
"Fenris left," she said simply, stating the obvious. She looked over at her mother, not saying much else. The look on her face was enough for Leandra.
"Let's talk upstairs," Leandra said gently, taking her daughter's hand and leading Zaria back up to her room. The two sat down on Zaria's bed, and Zaria gazed into the fire. Zaria sighed and leaned against her mother, who put an arm around her shoulder. Zaria explained how Fenris seemed to be bothered by his missing memories again. And she felt so helpless, being unable to do anything for him. By the end of it, she was wiping tears off her cheeks. She'd stopped pretending that she didn't feel anything for him a while ago. It was plenty obvious to her companions how she and Fenris felt about each other.
"Just give him time, my dear," Leandra said gently. "You're both young, you have plenty of time ahead of you. If you are meant to be, it will happen." Zaria pulled away from her mother and smiled.
"Thanks," she said genuinely. "Now I should get dressed. Aveline wanted to see me this morning."
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Jul 29, 2016 21:15:32 GMT -5
First Days in Lowtown
Zaria sighed softly, turning the single mirror they had so she could see her hair. Around her on the floor was most of the hair she'd had. It felt wrong to keep her hair so long after Bethany's death. She just looked too much like her little sister.
"Zaria, what are you doing in there?" came her brother's voice through the door, with the telltale pounding of his fist against the wood. She sighed and pulled the door open, and he stared at her. "Well, that's one way to change your look," he muttered, rolling his eyes and walking to a different part of the small main room. Zaria rolled her eyes and walked toward the door.
"Come on, we're supposed to meet Athenril this morning," she told Carver. "Grab your sword and meet me outside."
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Jul 31, 2016 10:54:54 GMT -5
Mother
Zaria fired one last bolt of lightning, killing the blood mage who dared mess with her family. But it was too late. It had been Quentin's magic keeping Leandra alive, and now that he was dead, so was she. Zaria sat there, holding her mother in her arms, while the other three made sure there weren't any more demons or undead around.
She didn't know how long she sat there, but eventually she felt a hand on her shoulder. She turned to look at it, realizing it could only be Fenris. The red favor she'd given him was tied around his wrist. Zaria sighed and placed her mother's body on the ground. Fenris offered his hand, silent as usual, and helped her up. He squeezed her hand gently before releasing it, a subtle gesture to show that he did still care for her, even though he was the one who left her.
"We need to report this," she said after a moment, her voice hard. "Those were books on necromancy from the Circle. Someone inside knew what he was doing and didn't stop him." The others didn't say anything. It was weird for Zaria to be looking to punish another mage, since she did understand their plight. But this time, she just wanted to find out who was behind it. "Aveline, tell Orsino." With that, she made her way back out of the Foundry, wordlessly walking through the darkened city, back to her estate in Hightown.
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Jul 31, 2016 14:04:15 GMT -5
Dreams
She had retired from the hero thing a while ago. She was getting a bit old to play hero anyway. She'd had good reason to stop running around hunting slavers and smugglers. Now she was working in the Circle, as a teacher for healing magics. The Circles had changed since Divine Victoria's coronation, for the better. She found herself wondering sometimes what Anders would have thought if he'd seen this.
She opened the front door to the estate and was greeted by a pair of kids, one of whom was only up to her knees.
"Welcome home Mama!" the older of the two said. Zaria lowered to her knees so she could look at her two children on their level.
"Mama home," said the little boy. His dark hair was in need of a trim, and his bright green eyes shimmered happily. His sister looked quite different compared to him; her white hair and bright blue eyes, she looked so much like their father, while the little boy looked almost like Zaria.
"Where's your father?" she asked them.
"Daddy's in the study," the little girl said. "I'll go get him!" She ran off up the stairs, while Zaria picked her son up in her arms. Now this was a life she loved. No more fighting, no more worrying about Fenris... And the two brightest parts of her life, in her arms every day.
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Oct 19, 2016 0:44:08 GMT -5
After the Fact
The Templars had allowed her to leave the city without protest after what happened during the battle. It had only taken a few minutes to decide that everyone needed to scatter in case the Divine called an Exalted March on Kirkwall for what she'd helped do. She knew she couldn't stay more than a day or two if she wanted to have a chance in diverting an Exalted March. Maybe they'd come after her instead of her city. So she escaped in the middle of the night.
Of course he was waiting. He was always waiting for her, and she knew that nothing she said would make him stay. Nothing short of breaking it off with him, of course, but she couldn't bring herself to do that. Truthfully, she would be glad for the company. Being on the road alone would get lonely. And who knew when they were going to be back. If they would ever be back. So she simply tossed him a smile, dropped a quick kiss on his cheek, and led the way through the eastern gate.
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Nov 9, 2016 18:48:42 GMT -5
That damn dwarf
Zaria stood on the estate balcony, looking out over her city. In one direction was the Viscount's estate, where Varric now sat(which was weird in its own way). Lowtown was visible from here too, where she knew Merrill was helping other elves in the alienage. The mountain's shadow was starting to lengthen over the city as the sun dipped toward the horizon.
Zaria finally turned her gaze toward the Gallows, the site of the greatest battle in Kirkwall's recent history. Meredith's statue was still sitting there, the red lyrium statue stuck to the stone steps. And she found herself thinking about what had gotten them into that mess.
Her family still would have ended up here. Her mother would probably still have been killed by that blood mage. But everything else could be tied back to Bartrand and that Maker-damned idol. Bartrand sold the idol to Meredith, which made her go completely mad and fed her distrust of mages. Maybe without the idol, she would've been more reasonable, and then Anders never would have blown up the Chantry. So much would be different if it hadn't been for that damn dwarf.
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Nov 21, 2016 20:19:45 GMT -5
Alone in a Crowd
Zaria looked out over the city. It was getting pretty lonely now that everyone else had moved on. Varric was off with the Inquisition, Fenris was somewhere hunting slavers, Isabela had finally gotten herself a ship and left Kirkwall. Aveline and Carver had left the city once word had reached them both of the Wardens disappearing across Ferelden and Orlais. Merrill was still in the Alienage, but Zaria felt multiple sets of eyes on her every time she went down there. Sebastian had gone back to Starkhaven years ago. And Anders...
She was alone in this big city. Alone... It was a strange sensation. She'd never been alone like this before. Even after Malcom's death three years before the Blight, she still had the twins and Leandra. With Bethany's death by darkspawn back in Lothering and Leandra killed by blood magic, all she had was Carver. And he was off adventuring Maker-knew-where.
Things had gotten better between her and her brother after Carver joined the Wardens. Things had been rough at first, but he seemed to like what he was doing. She sighed softly, finding her mind wandering to some of her other companions. Maybe if she had been even a little less focused on fixing things and spared a bit of attention for her companions, she might be standing beside someone right now.
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Dec 8, 2016 11:06:27 GMT -5
Adamant
She'd been arguing with Stroud ever since they saw the first of the Inquisitor's lost memories. The Wardens had been responsible for this, for killing the Divine, and now they were trying to get an army of demons together to assault the Deep Roads. Not even Anders had been this stupid. But she kept her opinions to herself as they fought, trying to keep the fear from taking over. This was the lair of a Nightmare demon, and she was a mage. What if it tried to possess her? And the spiders... Ugh.
Then they stood face to face with the nightmare's true form, a giant spider easily the size of a high dragon. She couldn't deny it anymore, this was terrifying. She swallowed hard and volunteered herself to fight it. Beside her was the elf Inquisitor, Cyrlan, and she knew he was what this world needed right now. She'd done her job, it was time to let him do his.
She allowed Cyrlan to pull her through the rift while Stroud fought the demon. Wait, when had he...? But before she could even ask herself that question, she was on all fours on the stone that made up Adamant Fortress. She was panting and gasping, looking over her shoulder as the elf closed the rift. She allowed herself to basically roll over, sitting on the stone and tilting her head to the sky. Her heart was still racing. She felt a hand on her shoulder and looked over into Varric's face, the familiar smirk on his lips and in his eyes. But she couldn't echo it. She sighed and got to her feet. Stroud had sacrificed himself in the name of the Wardens. That was what they were about right? In death, sacrifice... But it felt wrong. He shouldn't have needed to do that.
"I'm just glad Carver wasn't involved in this," she admitted to Varric, walking forward and offering to go to Weisshaupt with the Wardens who would join her. This time, she was able to at least give Varric an attempt at a reassuring smile, though by the worry on his face it fell quite flat. "Let Fenris know, would you? I didn't get a chance to tell him I was leaving."
"He is not going to be happy about that," the dwarf responded.
"It's his own fault for running off," she insisted. "It wasn't like I could go looking for him."
"Sure Hawke, I'll let them know," he assured her. This time her smile was genuine as she walked away, a group of Wardens behind her. But she still had nightmares after facing that demon, and she didn't get much sleep on the trip, long as it was.
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Post by Zaria Hawke on Dec 31, 2016 9:47:56 GMT -5
A Different Hawke
She aimed her bow and fired into the horde, fear growing in her heart. This was the largest mass of darkspawn they'd seen yet. But still, she readied another arrow and fired in time with the other archers. A pair of matching daggers were belted to her waist, behind her back, with the hilts sticking out sideways. There was a chance that they would be needed on the main battlefield, and she was going to be ready.
The call went out, and some of the archers put their bows down and drew daggers. Zaria, however, took her bow and strapped it to the outside of her quiver. She didn't want to go losing that, it had been a present from her father years ago.
She was on the ground, dancing through the darkspawn and the soldiers with her daggers. And then, out of the corner of her eye, she saw it. The fire at the tower, the signal! But the battle raged on, with no additional troops to aid them. They were being overwhelmed. And where was... There! Carver was still fighting strong! She made her way over to him and grabbed his hand.
"We've lost Carver!" she told him above the noise of the battlefield. With that, she pulled his hand away from the battle. And they ran.
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